Possible new beginnings

So I am still very very stressed. Actually I have made myself so stressed that I feel like I might fall into hysterical panic or extreme depression if I don't manage to keep a handle on myself. Yes, life is totally getting the better of me at the moment. It's been a year of being constantly rejected and there is only so much a person can take. Many you must have gone (or are going) through something similar and I'm sure you understand how there is a breaking point, no matter how strong willed and positive you try to be, and I'm rapidly reaching mine. On friday, as I mentioned, I had a skype interview for a rather interesting job in Paris. Something very different from what I've been doing the last years, and far closer to my university experiences. I was surprised that I was even considered since I don't really have the relevant experience and I might even be slightly under-qualified. (Especially after being turned down for so many jobs in London that I was actually over-qualified for.) And returning to Paris! It is something I had told myself I would never do, since despite loving the actual city to bits, I fell into the deepest depression I've ever been in while living there last time. But never say never. I can't help but feel that if I want to ever get anywhere I have to leave London, since its clear that the british will never give me a chance. I had been thinking of Amsterdam or Copenhagen, or even Oslo. But why not Paris? I know the language and I know how it works. That is why I am so afraid I will not get the job. My interview didn't go bad, but it didn't go great either. And he told me that he had a lot more interviews to do, so I won't learn for another week at least what their verdict is. I can't help but feel that being one of the first people they interviewed is a bad thing and will lessen my chances even more. And I can't help but be very disappointed with myself for being so stressed that I froze on certain questions and didn't make the best impression I could. Who am I kidding, I didn't get the job. And I was so looking forward to finally managing to regain a semblance of a life... And so we come to the second song I am considering as a soundtrack for my life at the moment (after the last post's song):